I bought this for my wedding night in 08. I find it very ironic it says California fantasies.  See I’ve had dreams of California for a long time now. Even on my wedding night it was a sign I just never noticed.  Obviously I didn’t use it. My ex husband thought drugs was more important then making love,  then got mad at me for going downstairs to gamble. We watched the dark night on our wedding night in which he threatened me. I’ll never forget me thinking wtf did I just do? I remember looking out the window crying. Watching the snow fall I seen horses and a carriage thinking that’s amazing. What I just did was nothing I dreamed of.  I remember thinking I want a divorce already. I’ll never forget it. To avoid a fight I left downstairs in my dress playing craps and rolling 7. My husband at the time was jealous and accused me of cheating.  I had men all around me and was getting lucky. He was drunk and on drugs. I wasnt happy about it.  This reminds me of that night.  But it’s funnybit says california fantasies.  I love batman because of the dark Knight movie. Has a twisted funny slap to it.

I bought this for my wedding night in 08. I find it very ironic it says California fantasies.  See I’ve had dreams of California for a long time now. Even on my wedding night it was a sign I just never noticed.  Obviously I didn’t use it. My ex husband thought drugs was more important then making love,  then got mad at me for going downstairs to gamble. We watched the dark night on our wedding night in which he threatened me. I’ll never forget me thinking wtf did I just do? I remember looking out the window crying. Watching the snow fall I seen horses and a carriage thinking that’s amazing. What I just did was nothing I dreamed of.  I remember thinking I want a divorce already. I’ll never forget it. To avoid a fight I left downstairs in my dress playing craps and rolling 7. My husband at the time was jealous and accused me of cheating.  I had men all around me and was getting lucky. He was drunk and on drugs. I wasnt happy about it.  This reminds me of that night.  But it’s funnybit says california fantasies.  I love batman because of the dark Knight movie. Has a twisted funny slap to it.

So this is what I take from my dream. I dreamed of Daniel because his friend came in. I dreamed of LA falling apart because of earthquakes.  I dreamed of lawyer and lawsuit because I want to be a lawyer and I strongly feel san joaquin could have done more in my life and protecting it. Kind of like how I wrote a statement and probation told my ex. Then they put him in rehab for 90 days and broke their rules first day then back to jail then delancey. I also think I had a dream about my birthday because something might happen. .see I had friends post on my page about singing again. However,  if nosey you might be able to find out. So my past might be seeing all this due to he knows their names. Then a table tonight it was guys bday his name was del mar like san Diego and we got to talking and I enjiyed them. They said they were Christian they would pray for me. Lady asked me but do you love him? I said I love him because he is human, but to get back together no. Never. I don’t love him like that. I meant it. I think she felt my sincerity to the question. No, I do not love him. However,  he is a human so I do love him as in I personally can’t harm him and I forgive, but dont forget. Too much damage and he just needs to be stopped.